When the real me comes out of the closet

I know I haven’t blogged in a while so I will try to keep it short, but still put everything in to this post.

I’ve been seeing MrBig now for just over 2 months. The only thing that is bugging me is that he does not

want to see me as his BF (thus also not allowing me to call him my BF). The problem is the way the two of us sees relationships. To me, a person who you are seeing monogamously and on a very regular basis is your BF. To him, we are only BF’s the day we are ready to get married and have already moved in together. He also said that does not want it to become to serious to quickly and I understand that. I think he might have been scared I want to move in with him next year after my studies, but I also first want to fins my feet. I do see this relationship developing into a long term relationship. It has already lasted longer that any of my previous ones. But so far it is going quite well.

The past weekend Mr.Big took the weekend to get away from everyone and everything. That gave me a chance to also get some rest after a very, very, very hectic week and also to catch up with Mr.P, who has been working in JHB for the last 6 months or so and I really miss him. He came to Stellies on Friday and called me up to come with them to Opskop (a local langarm place). It was really nice seeing him and chatting to him. In a bit of a drunken state he gave me a hug (in public) and told me that I am one of his best friends. For a person, who was scared to death of me when I came out to him, to say that to me, really meant a lot!!!

One a totally different note… I love competitions… ok only those that doesn’t cost me anything. One of the more recent ones I entered was with Nokia, more specifically Nokia Ringaz. I had to write a motivation as to why they should pick me to send a Nokia N900 to for 2 weeks and review it. After the review is posted people have to vote for the best one. And the one who wrote the best review wins the phone. So I am one of 3 that has been chosen to review the phone. And I am getting the phone tomorrow. I am so excited!! I love that Phone, it was right at the top of my list for my next Upgrade in October! So I will keep you posted on the progress of my N900 exploration. I have been doing so much research about the phone, even before the competition!

Ok that is it for now. Blog again soon…

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As I am typing this I am listening to Dark Roman Wine by Snow Patrol, now why am I listening to a song that would drive a single man crazy, you might ask yourself. Well that is, because, in a way, I am not single anymore. I met this awesome guy and yes he is also reading this blog, but I am not going to hold back because of that. I know that

this might sound very familiar, but I guess that is what my life is like. I met this one on the internet, and I don’t think that I was really looking to fall in love, all I wanted was to play around. Ok lets start from the top. We started chatting on this site on Friday and swoped numbers, thinking that I could get some fun out of this one. After this years disastrous attempt at creating relationships I felt like I needed to just get away from the idea and have some fun (like back in 1st year). So we started texting and and throwing in some dirt talk along the way, till my battery died while out partying with Hag1. At about 5am i got into bed and SMS’d him. He was either still awake or my sms woke him. Any who we chatted for a while till I fell asleep (I think so did he). The next moring I woke up to a message coming through on my phone, it’s him. Again chatting a bit, and then he asked me if he cant come through for some fun. Now he lives in Cape Town so it’s about a 45 min drive for fun, but I am not going to stop him. The problem is, since I live with my parents I needed to find somewhere to do this. I organised something in a sort of secluded place (cold floors) and I met him close to the spot. From the first moment I saw him (in person that is) I know this will not just be a “funbuddy”, I want more! For those who know what I look like he is built a bit bigger and taller with beautiful blue eyes, short hair and is 33 years old. Well the fun was fun and I had the biggest smile on my face since for the rest of the day. Not even the Blue Bulls wining could bring down my spirit. After he left we kept chatting and I told him that I really liked him and he said that he feels the same. I was in heaven!!

To steal a name from Sex and the City, MrBig, was amazing and I had to see him again, he makes me feel like a 16 year old school girl… wait, what?, but this time not in a gloomy place like the last time. This time I organised a place with a comfy couch that we could use on Monday. He drove all the way through again and met me there at 9pm. We chatted for a while then kissed andchatted and kissed and then we … well MrBig is a brilliant kisser, knows exactly what to do with his tongue to drive me mad!!! Any way, he only left Stellenboch at about 12:30. I have been struggling to concentrate on anything since then!

I was suppose to see him again tonight, but then last night, out of the blue, a cold sore appeared. I told him that he can not come through, because we will not be able to kiss. Seeing him without being able to kiss him would just be torture! So it is postponed till I can get rid of this virus! So, I am off the menu and am on my way to being a bf. Hopefully he can help me with a few points on the Bucket list.

In other news, I am taking a break from Lab work next week and have decided to spend this break visiting some of the CT friends I don’t see that much any more. Mr.Metro and DJ Tech is on the list I want to visit. If you feel you need to be added to the list please let me know and I will try to make a plan.