Last time I bloged I told you a little about cute 14. The boy who read my blog fromt to back and probably knows it better than I do because of it (some of those posts I haven’t read since I posted them). Well after spotting this cute thing at a Lesbigay party, I took a bit of interest in him, but didn’t think anything of it since he is young and a bit out of my league. Apparently the guy also took a bit of an interest in my and started the normal gay ritual of e-stalking, thus finding out all he can from the net about me and with my internet profile it is not to difficult. That is also how he got to my blog. After reading my blog he took an even bigger interest in me and decided to ask me out on a date. I got the invite right after the Kelly concert and said that I would like to go on this date with him. Of course I was scared shitless, here is a 18year old guy with the balls to ask out a 24 year old guy on a date. So over the Loki induced weekend we chatted on gtalk and mxit. The more we chatted the more excited I got about this date of ours. The closer it came to the day of the date the more giggly I got. I was like a 16 year old girl being asked to go to a matric farewell.

The day before the date I randomly met him and his one friend after invigilating a test. They really wanted to see the Lab, so I took them to the department and gave them the grand tour. Not much to see but hey…

On the night of the date (Wednesday) I went home early to get ready and to start the full gay grooming ritual. He PICKED ME UP!!! Yes, after having a bf for 2 months that I had to drive after, it felt nice being driven to a date (not that S.Mxit and I ever went on dates). The whole date went well, he told me that a reason he asked me on the date was because of what he had read on this blog and that he also felt like he can get/have sex any time with whom ever, but that he wanted a realtionship. I was falling for this guy hard. I slept over but nothing happened, well not much. I struggled to fall asleep. I guess I am still not used to sleeping next to someone. Though I must say it felt so nice holding someone and being held by someone again (and the fact that he has such a nice bed!!). Any who, the next morning he took me home and I was on such a high!! He was a bit strange on the online, but I just though it’s because he did not get enough sleep.

For the next 2 days I sms’s him a few times and I think I might have smothered him a bit like I always do with people. On Friday evening before his test I sms’d him asking when can we see each other again an if he was up to watching a movie on Tuesday or might want to meet up on Sunday, when I got a sms saying: “ill let you know, ok? I need to do some thinking”, my face dropped. I knew exactly what was coming. I asked him if I was smothering him and he replied that it was not that and that he know he said that it is what he wanted, but that commitment was a bit daunting right now and that he does not think that he would be able to give his all in a relationship at this time, and that it might be easier if we were friends and take things from there. Though disappointed, I do understand, he is still very young and even though neither of us really wanted age to be a issue I think it might be. Not the fact that there is a few years difference between us, but that he is at the age where he should be exploring all he can, not be stuck in a relationship with a 24 year old guy who is (hopefully) in his final year of varsity and had his varsity scores.

I think I was on a bit of an emotional high when He told me he needs time to think so I think coming down from that high was a bit of a crash and burn situation. I told him that I would really still like to be friends with him and we agreed that we would be. So if I can be friends with someone like Mr. P then I can just as “easily” be friends with 14. He said that it went well with the test on Friday but not so well with his test on Saturday. I’m trying to give him some breathing room for now. Will give you an update later. Wonder if he will still go jogging with me? Should I even ask him? Though I guess he might read this blog… Any thoughts?